2025年8月7日
mar 7th 🩷🩵🏳️⚧️ another year another SLAYYYY
I’ve been so busy lately, feel like I have no time for myself before my new c*nsulting j*b…
And as usual, in classic Jeff’s fashion, I cooked up this website in a day or so (AGAIN), and posted this last minute today 😭
I’ll be making this post like Q&A based because I can’t think of a cool way to say what I want to say when I’m this rushed to post this blog 💀
How do you feel?
rushed, but relieved as I’m finally satisfied about this website. Also full, just had dinner with my bestie (shoutout CPT), where I refilled another noodle bowl (cuz it’s free) and ate a whole ahh fruit platter (cuz it’s free, birthday freebie), god about to explode…
I mean how you feel this year
Well, it’s probably my best year but lemme split it to the goodTM and the badTM
The good
I think I’m the luckiest person ngl. I recently resigned from a toxic-micromanage-unrealistic-bad-attitude company, and actually because of that, I got my big 4 ahh j*b offer, I used it as a stepping stone.
Previously, I had trouble job searching (ok just assume it’s censored from here on out XD), it’s because I had a 1.5 years resume gap 🥀. My previous bad job helped me fill the void, and even though I had to endure the “hell’s kitchen”-esque work environment, it was ultimately worth it.
I also resigned 30 mins too early to get my severance pay (the team disbanded) but ok. 😇 enough about work
I’m so blessed to have made a new friend group this FY241, then I volunteered for some art events where I’ve made alot of friends~
Retained my old friends too, well some drift away and some exploded (not literally), but all in all, it’s a net gain hehe
I’m starting to get a hang of this making friends business yayyy!
The bad
2 of my dogs passed away this year. I still miss Snowie dearly, I haven’t posted what I did for her, but glad I did a final send-off that I’m still think it’s sweet… and I know she is proud of me now ^^
Oh yeah and I lost a like a bestie bestie whom we always hung out and I treated sincerely like my own sister, I always wanted a sister, but oh wells… I feel like I wasn’t being appreciated so I left on my own accord.
Time flies by especially when my unemployment era has ended 🥀I sometimes feel like I haven’t processed everything that happened. Like sometimes it’s not because of work, but the amount of friends outings that I have to attend (not flexing) X)
I’m also too busy or too lazy to do the things I want (draw more, learn Japanese & guitar), luckily the deadline of my own birthday finally birthed this blog HAHAHS
Also march 7th became evil 😭
What about being 25+
I think alot of people think this age is “old”… like literally SYBAU2 🥀I STILL FEEL YOUNG AS EVER. Plus, I feel like my brain has finally fully developed and not doing dumb mistakes as I used to!
Like the difference is humongous compared to myself even just a few years ago, I feel like I know myself alot more, my likes my dislikes my limits. I don’t force stuffs now. I do social interaction well, eye contact is not an issue now (esp. since my diagnosis of ADHD + ASD)
Body-wise, I do feel a teeny-tiny bit of le old, but that is heavily countered by the running and going out and walking that I often like to do. Like bruh don’t blame it on age when you never train it 😭
I’ve been really pushing my limits of my body recently, and I do feel short-term tiredness, but it’s all for that endurance I will reap later~
What’s next
My big 4 consultancy era is looming, and I am pretty worried that it’ll be too much for me, or that I’m a fraud (IMPASTA SYNDROME ALERT ⚠️)
But I guess what works for me is just doing stuff. Like literally what my psychiatrist told me: You show up, you do the stuffs, even if you don’t feel like it.
Previously I’ve been too much of a lazy-perfectionist, like if the environment/situation is not perfect enough, I would not do it. Or I would like find the most perfect solution for something, but sometimes that doesn’t exist, or finding it would take tremendous amount of time, while yielding meagre results. Maybe it was an excuse too.
Ok so-
Some goals
I would like to
- Run sub 2hrs half-marathon (race on October 12)
- Do my job well and abuse the benefits to get AWS certified
- Draw 4 okay-ish piece (1 per month seems feasible right?)
- Start making game, learning guitar, or japanese (just ONE of them)
FInd a partner
That’s all I think (time has run up for me to post before tomorrow HAHA) and hope to write more on my blog and cool projects maybe here (I WILL MAKE TIME FOR IT MARK MY WORDSSSS)
Thanks for reading~ also here is my youtube playlist for this FY24 🩷
